The Composite Human

I’ve experienced this state of being: where I am witness to reality—my senses and surroundings—melt into the world of dreams. Without moving, my location changes. Creatures and shapes and people pop in and out in front of me. And yet, my conscious narration continues from where my waking self left off, not even reacting to the psychedelic show before my eyes. My conscious narration continues, but other sounds play overtop of my voice—sometimes even a copy of my voice plays, a copy that speaks to the events of whatever dream I am entering. Other times I’d hear music from an indiscernible song.

Being in this state, hypnagogia, in between reality and dreams, I feel more aware of my subconscious. The dream seems picked for me by it, and while I experience my reactions to the dream, it doesn’t feel like I am making the choices or choosing the words my dream self says. It feels like I am watching a movie—only, I feel the sensations the protagonist is experiencing.

Life experience and information I’ve studied on the human body lead me to conclude that the conscious mind can alter the subconscious mind. So, by consistently performing certain behaviors and thoughts in the waking world, my experience of hypnagogia will evolve.